Still Searching....

So, I'm tired. Just tired of so many things. Tired of trying to find someone worthwhile. Tired of trying with anyone. I need a good space cowboy-like hero. Not the age of the guys in the movie Space Cowboys, but like Mal and Han style. I like a little mouthiness and that confidence. I love some confidence. I guess both of them were smugglers too, but only to make a living and thwart The Man. So maybe a guy that follows through on what he believes in... more than words kind of thing. I mean they were kind of smugglers with a heart of gold. Not really bad boys, but capable of thinking and acting for themselves. Yeah, and having your own space ship would be nice too.

So where does this come from? Yet another bad date, of course. Wasn't even the incredible level of bad that I'm used to, but wasn't good either. Neither one of us seemed to really want to be there. Odd, yeah, I know I failed a bit here too. I was just tired after work and running late and couldn't hardly deal with being questioned on what I was doing to be 10 min late from someone I just met. Dude, just go with it. I was late, I will be late next time too most likely. I'm always running late. I told you this. Stop harping, mom.

Then kept on and on about how I looked familiar... accused me of not wanting to tell him the truth of where I graduated high school. Really?? Well, I realized this morning that I do know the kid. We used to go to church in the city together as kids. I never paid attention to kids younger than me really (3yrs), but I do remember this one because he was a scrawny kid that always had a baseball look about him. I vaguely remember his parents getting divorced while I was in Rolla. It all fits and suddenly his face and name made sense, lol. Yeah, didn't meet him on a PG-rated website. I'm not gonna mention the connection, but I'd bet I don't get a call back anyway. Both of us seemed happy to leave.